Revelation

Speechless...

The question led to a state of confusion. "Don't tell me it's true," I thought to myself. I was curious to find out, but was too confused to pursue the matter any further. Surely, I wouldn't be let off so easily, would I? Furthermore, the twinkle in the eyes suggested there was something more to it.

Little did I know it would lead to the revelation. How everything seemed as if it was premeditated. The truth is, the whole episode sounded rather bizarre. Though I was given the warning, still, I found myself caught unprepared.

Of course, I suspected something for quite some time. Been there, know what it is like. I'm not a wooden stump, for goodness sake. Even a narcissist isn't oblivion to the people around him. But, I brushed aside my silly inference, dismissing it as a product of my overactive imagination. You know your instinct can't be trusted if you're the kind of person who constantly fantasises.

Alas, I've never thought my unreliable instinct could've been proven to be true. And what's more, to find it out in such an unexpected way added to the shock.

How did I feel? Confused. Doubtful. No overeaction. On the contrary, I didn't know how to react.

Imagine you're an agnostic who has been doubtful of God's existence all this while. To you, you don't care to find out whether there is a higher power because whichever way it turns out, it doesn't matter much to you. Then, one day, you meet God in person. You're baffled. Now, you know He's for real; yet, you dare not believe it is true.

Well, I guess that's the best I can describe how I feel.

What am I supposed to do? Brush it aside once again and pretend as if nothing happened? That's the only way I could think of. I admit my impotence in handling such situations. I'm sorry.

Would things be better if I were not told of this? But, nevermind, no one's at fault here, I guess.