Feigning a Smile

Still couldn't get myself to sleep.
Got out of the bed again.
This time, I did a stupid test.

Setting the cellphone to stopwatch mode,
I started timing myself.
It took less than 40 seconds
Till the first teardrop.
Almost effortless.

Then, looking at myself in the mirror,
I tried to get a convincing smile within 40 seconds.
But I couldn't even feign one.